Why I am so Alone

Some time grimed memories...
still wondering...
Why I'm bereft of you...
Perceiving people..
Is what I'm getting acclimated...
And that heaves a colossal hollow...
Somewhere inside me...
ob-testing to be filled...
Daze of the sardonic truth...
That it is me only...
Who garners the seclusion cloak...
To accost an ambit...
Which keeps me shielded...

I feel the blessed tides of river...
tardily embrace the sea...
and become the rhythm of amity...
after sacrificing it's endurance..
I feel the cursed emotions of mine...
Revolving around me as imbued...
I nudge them back...
the keep coming back to me...
The invisible guise is sinewy...
To keep them from spreading their wings...
And tell the world outside...
That, the boy here...
Wants love, wants amore...
Wants his beloved for his reflection...
But whatever they squall...
They only find my ears to ascult...

I feel an urge to cry...
but the shoulder to rest my head on...
I found missing...
Giving up the chase...
Adoring death...
Might conclude...
But my heart's so supine for that...
It's only your aura which keeps me alive...
and the slant dimming hope...
that one blessed day...
you'll return to me completely.